actions, not words.

Welcome to this blog! This used to be a daily blog, hence the numbering system; it has moved to be a collection of posts which contain some of my favorite writing. Note that daily posting continues on a different platform—if you'd like access to that, please email me at az23@mit.edu . In any case, here's an even finer selection of some of the posts that I like the most, in chronological order: [Jan 2018] C: Prologue : a prologue to a novella I wrote junior year [August 2018]   1A : a reflection on missing RSI, anxiety surrounding college admissions and the start of my current daily blogging streak [September 2018] 53A : political reflections on the Pledge, Christine Blasey-Ford, and identity politics [November 2018]   112A : discussions about psychological concepts and a tired, tired poem [December 2018]   129A:  the establishment of a personal philosophy interweaved with a good day [December 2018]   131A : getting deferred from MIT, and accompanying introspection [Ja

Today was a good day. I woke up at 11 AM, sleeping in and out through extremely loud drilling occurring in the room next to mine. After getting up, I moved some A/V equipment back to Building 4, and then went over to W20 intending to head back to Baker when I bumped into some of the other counselors. As a group, we decided to collectively head to lunch at Sebastian's, which was a good decision. After a filling lunch for a very hungry me, we headed back to Baker. In Baker, I worked a little bit on whittling my to-do list down, and a little bit on formalizing my project work. This was vaguely effective, and I headed to a lab meeting to discuss it only to find out that it had been postponed, and then canceled. At the very least, I managed to get some imported Belgian chocolate out of it, so that was a nice reward. I worked in W20 for a little bit afterwards to prove that my idea from last year did not work. This was disappointing, but at least I finally knew it was true. Oh well. Re

Today was an overall decent and, in general, very interesting day. I suppose I will be spoiling an event from RSI, but I think it's important for me to do so in order to discuss more broadly a variety of feelings I had today. After sleeping relatively "early" last night at around 2:30 AM, I managed to sleep for a ridiculous amount of time. Despite the fact that my blinds were up, and light was streaming through my windows throughout the day, I slept on and off for about 11 hours. This certainly does not make up for my sleep debt, but getting out of bed at 1:30 PM was certainly one of the best feelings I've had in a long while. I went to Barker with my laptop and a notebook, and ended up typing up some of my thoughts about RSI that I mentioned a while ago. They still need to be edited, but I didn't have to energy to do so at the moment. In fact, I noticed my focus wandering randomly, and I eventually figured that this was a result of not having eaten a signific