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258A — I am what might be, I am mystery...

Today was a decent enough day, given that it is, in fact, a Sunday. I came into today expecting to have all sorts of homework, but ended up not having any (apart from a little bit of AP Psych), which was an excellent turn of events. However, the result is that I did absolutely nothing, which is both unfortunate and liberating. Part of me can't fathom the fact that we're leaving for worlds in two days. Part of me is excited beyond belief. Part of me is kicking myself for not practicing for auditions on Tuesday. Part of me doesn't care anymore. I don't know what the next few days will bring me, but I can only hope that they will be good. A very small to-do list that I can refer back to: I have AP Psych research to write at some point, an AP Bio assignment due tomorrow that looks like a lot of math (which makes me happy), an AP Bio test, an audition to practice for on Tuesday, packing to do, professors to email, and some psych notes due when I get back from worlds. I'

249A — Come look at the freaks...

Today was a pretty good day. It started off relatively slowly—I got up late, and didn't really have anything to do in the morning, and didn't really feel like planning anything either, so I kind of just sat there and listened to podcasts. The yearning to do something has resumed, so I didn't really feel well while I was sitting there, but I couldn't think of anything which would really be that productive, so I just sat in my un-productivity, mildly discontent, but extant. The school district didn't announce whether or not the show was going on for what seemed like an unbearable long time. There was nothing to look forwards to until almost 2 PM, when they finally said that the show was happening! Our call time was 4 PM, so from there my lack of activity became motivated—to fill the meager amount of time which lay between us and the show. Through sheer force of will, I made it to about 3:40, changed into dress clothes, and then headed to the school. Exciting times

247A — Oh, the weather outside is frightful...

Today was a pretty good day, despite me not doing  quite  as much as I probably should have. This is acceptable because tomorrow is snow day part two! The best part of this is that, as a senior, I won't have to make any of these days up, so everything is just fine and dandy. The worst part of this is that we might not be able to do the show tomorrow, which will be a bummer for sure. Another plus to this whole snow situation is relatively counter-intuitive—because of the snow, flights out of Rapid have been canceled, meaning missing CPW to play in the pit was the right decision. Now, at the very least, I will probably be able to play for at least one show, which I will be happy enough about. I woke up today at 5 AM and realized that they must have had to make a decision by that time. A little panicked that I had not heard a phone call (although I could've slept through it), I began scrambling for the district Facebook when a) our pit director texted us to tell us there was no

241A — Maybe they can all share...

Today was decent. The sheer amount of sleep I got last night was mildly surprising, but getting up in the morning wasn't totally painless either. Maybe I need to find the exact balance. In any case, I will most likely not be sleeping early tonight, since I have a significant portion of a Spanish script left to write. Fortunately, the AP Bio assignment was easier than I expected, so maybe it all evens out. I got to school today just in time to nab the last spot in 'A' lot, and spent my morning, as usual, working on homework (this time for Spanish). AP Psych today was again deserted, so we had a relatively chill class, with some small tests and work and whatnot. Spanish 4 was a very interesting day, with some very funny discussions and answers to hypothetical questions, and then we went to Orchestra, where we played some music but in general just had a lot of random discussion and story-telling. I went home for lunch, and then did some work on the AP Bio assignment. I'

238A — Why can't I be poor and healthy...

Today was an okay day. It should've been much better in theory, but mitigating factors, generally emotional, prevented it from being that. I got up at a reasonable time today and rushed a little bit on the way to school since I needed to make it to a violin sectional for the pit for the musical. From there, I made my way to AP Psych, which was mildly uncomfortable because we were discussing disorders and a) a discussion of anxiety occurred which literally made me increasingly anxious (and she discussed free-floating anxiety, which I definitely have, because it just randomly attaches itself to objects of fixation), and b) there was a relatively flippant mention of homosexuality being on the DSM, which was not necessary and kind of uncomfortable. That, combined with recent thoughts about blood drive, which is the first point of structural  homophobia I have truly brushed by, made the morning interesting. Spanish was a little better—we learned about si frases, which was certainly